Blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh.


Shits fkd.

Its been a very long time since I've journalededed. Its a word. Look it up.
(dont, its not a word)
I like writing these its just hard to find the motivation.
im finding getting motivated in general is hard these days. I'm getting lazier and lazier, but also busier.
I have 2 jobs + tafe.... blargh. Im so tired. of life in general.
Everything is just getting harder and harder to deal with.

Let me fill you in on the last few weeks.
I spent my first whole 2 weeks away from my parents this week and last week. It was really cool, but scary. Gave me a small look at moving out I guess. It made me realise a few things. I shall list them for you.

1) Ive grown up a lot in the last few months. Leaving school, Getting my licence, smoking more, ...i dont know. Its all just made me suck it up and deal with shit a lot faster. And i think thats one of the key parts of being an adult. Fast decisions.

2) I have got to stop smoking as much as I do. I blame Douglas Cook for that.

3) I dont mind my job at the bowl. Working at subway makes me hate my life, and everyone who works there is a dead shit. EVERYONE. I want to quit right now. But then I cant buy a car. Being an adult is sucky.


Whatever happened to those days as a kid where you just ran the fk around in your underwear and noone gave a flying fk.
When you could just play with your toys literally all day, have a bath, get some tea, and go to bed. fk man you dont even have to wash yourself, or make your own food!

I really miss people from my past.
A few of them anyway.
Its been really getting to me lately.
I wish somethings were different.
The only way is forward though.

Fk my eyes hurt. should be wearing my new glasses. >_<

IMY. IMYHXC.
<3 <3 <3 <3

I dont know what I want in life at the moment. All I know is you make me happy. And I fall for you over and over and over, everytime i see you.
You amaze me.


I told Brooke Id put in that I made a sheet fort, and that we are mad doods. We slept in the sheet fort. It was awesome.
Anyway.
Rizu out. <3